Please pray for me, I lost my oldest son May 15,19 from a fetnayl overdose. I found him in our master bath. I have been to counseling I have seen a psychiatrist as well.

I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD as well as severe depression. The PTSD is the absolute worse I have not been able to enter our master bath in over a year. My experience was so traumatic I can’t go in there the door has to be closed at all times.

Life has been so difficult, without God I would have never made it this far. I’ve been praying for a financial blessing to remodel our bathroom. Everyday has been a struggle being in our home I feel like our home is going to swallow me up and spit me out. My struggle is real.

Selling our home is not an option I have begged and pleaded with my husband to sell please let’s move etc. he is not my sons biological father. This traumatic experience has effected our marriage as well. I feel he doesn’t understand me he has not been there emotionally, spiritually not on any level, that’s the way I feel anyway.

If I did not walk in faith like I do everyday I know I wouldn’t have made it a day, a week a month a year without God.

Please pray for me I need every prayer at this time. I need this PTSD to leave my body, my heart my mind my soul. I feel I could overcome the diagnosis of PTSD if I could change up my home so I’m not reminded everyday of how traumatized I truly am.
I know my son would not want me to live feeling tortured everyday for the entirety of my life.

Thank You 🙏 💙💙🙏
God Bless