My husband left me when things got difficult in our lives and I had some major health issues come up that required my needing (and telling him so) for first time ever in our 18 years of being together. Two weeks after leaving me he moved in with another woman after just one night of "being" with her and has been with her ever since. Telling her lie on top of lie. My children have buried the pain for 2 years and acted like they didn't want anything to do with him and every time he did not show up for their events, did not call, did not come to their birthday or even bother to call them on their birthday acted as if they did not care, now the pent up anger etc. has built up to a head and it is being taken out on me where they are cursing at me, disobeying my rules, arguing with me over everything and now blaming me that their dad is gone. All this on top of battling the surgeries/recoveries etc. it just feels too much. Though I hear it said over and over the lord does not give us more than we can we can handle and knows all. I have for sometime now had it rolling around in my head of how would be the easiest least painful way to end my life this pain and no longer have to deal with any of it any longer. Please pray that my children come through this season of our lives healed and no longer hurting, please pray that these thoughts be taken from me and I also be healed.