I truly love the Lord and want to serve him everyday.....I want to be happy and most of the time I feel that way but my downfall is being married to a man that does not respect me nor the word of God...I do not understand him although I have tried to for many years and it is just not happening.....I have asked the Lord to always protect me from his deceit and lies and God has always done that but it still has hurt me so much over the years and I am really ready to throw in the towel....It seems so hard to be praising the Lord or working thru everyday life depending on the Lord and standing there speaking with my husband being drunk most of the time.....He stands in my face and lies to me all the time.....I just want to live free of his evil and live for God.....I know that evil is everywhere but it is a hard pill to swallow when you know it is in your own home....I love leading people to the Lord and knowing what is in my own home makes me wonder if I am worthy to do so.....Please Pray for me and my deliverance.....I do not know how God is going to fix it....but I stand in faith that he will.....I am the one that made this horrible mistake marrying a nonbeliever and I just knew he would change....I am giving him back to God and please pray for me....