all i want is to get love from person who loves me without any condition and knows me well enough to appreciate those sad or crazy days ... a person who knows that i am worth of loving even when i loose my smile and cry, who loves my "ugliness" and my self-will, who doesn't need perfection in his life, but can handle me when i am in my creative mood and messy like never cleaned my home (even tough the mess comes from what i am doing) ... actually know him already , but there still are too many walls to climb over ... God help me