It's been awhile since I last sent a prayer request here. But that's not to say I've stopped praying. I am quite ambivalent now. A little depressed but at the same time grateful for the things that I have. In the same breath, I am currently missing someone who I have not been around for so long and have forced to distance myself to avoid further hurt. I am failing miserably in forgetting him. But I realize that it seems like I really don't want to forget him in the first place. Right now, I need strength and perseverance to deal with all the dilemmas I am presented with. I am torn between doing what is right and doing what will make me happy. At the end of the day, you would have to live with your choices and I am having a hard time figuring out what decision I'd be most comfortable living with. I admit I still have the same feelings for him, but what good will it do me if I still act upon these feelings? But if I didn't, how will I ever know if i still have a chance at the possibility of us? I pray that I will have the wisdom to carry on through this situation. My heart can only take so much. please pray for me...