I feel like I'm being selfish asking for a great man in my life. I have a great friend who I would love to have him as a permanent fixture in my life, the only thing is he is pushing me away cuz I'm asking for more. I just don't want to lose him in my life. He makes me smile and laugh and thats what I want and need in my life. I just ask for him to stop pushing me away for things to go back the way they were. Please dear god I need that happyness.