The last 5 years have been so crazy. My parents divorced after 32 years of marriage and I think it was harder than if I was a child. They were my one constant. My mom is hardened and finacially stressed and so am I. I also had a break up of my own. It wasn't a long relationship, but it was so strong to me. It meant a lot to me and I don't just jump into relationships. He has been coming in and out of my life for almost 5 years now. He has left me for 3 other girls 3 different times. I still let him in but each time, I hurt more and he cares less. I'm not a tough person and have a hard time standing up to him. I try to move on and date others, but I always feel hallow. I feel like I'm not good enough. What is missing in me. Am I a bad person, an ugly person, what is missing?
I have some amazing jobs that I am interviewing for I just pray so hard that I get the best one. I think it will be the start of things getting better for me. I also pray for relief from the pain of that break up and either the ability to move on or if he is to be with me to smarten up and be more respectful of me. I can't live like this anymore. I believe if someone else prays for you it is much much stronger. I make sure to pray for everyone. It does help.