I need to take care of myself so I can be strong for the kids I substitute teach. They deserve a strong authority figure and I owe it to myself to live up to my potential. Please pray that I can do what it takes and that I have the energy and stamina to not want to avoid and run away from the situation. I find it so hard to endure despite the grief and trauma I've dealt with. I know it could be worse, but I am lonely and miss my ex. I miss full-time work and making a difference. I miss the meaning in my life. God, please give me meaning or let me find it here in what you have provided me. Please let me be who you want me to be and let that be enough.