Dear Papa G,

I am always greatful for all the blessings you have bestowed upon me and my loved ones. For all the granted prayers and blessings I don’t expect. And all the challenges and weaknesses You helped me through. Today, I ask for strength, wisdom, and the Holy Spirit so that I may understand Your will.
I always pray that I may understand and love my mother, the same way You cherish Mama Mary. I envy a lot of people who get along with their mums because I want to do the same. But no matter how much I try, I feel like my patience is always challenged, my trust is always put on the line. As I try reaching out, my whole arms being torn apart, I am being abused for reaching out. My anger keeps burning that I just want to let it be, let things be. Not forcing things to go my way, because maybe it was never meant to be that way ever since.
I also ask for strength to understand Your will.
Please be by my side as I do certain test to confirm something that they found on my body that might be abnormal. I don’t feel scared with all these things that are happening, I just keep it in my mind that You’re with me every step of the way. This year has been full of memories and experiences. And as the year’s about to change, You know what my heart always desires, I pray that its also a part of Your plan for me in this journey.
Amen.